Time passes quickly,and the emptiness deep within is piling up like the Eiffel Tower and any minute it'll tumble down like the gust of wind. Why am I feeling like this,I asked myself but as what people say "tough times don't last,but tough people stays"...What did I do to deserve such feelings of disappointment time and time again
Although non-chalance is what I always portray out,but the acting leaves me battered and sick of myself each time I do this(non-chalance).This friend of mine,she always say me about being hypocritical but am I really such a person?Lucky for my this friend of mine,he'll always be there whenever I'm confused,sad,weary...Or else I'll don't know what I'll react to this pain-staking "accusation".Once,I've a really best friend,I know at this point of time she'll be wondering why am I avoiding her or ignoring her think I really owe her an explanation,but right up to this point of time,it's already too late cause our friendship has already drifted miles and miles apart.
I know she tried ways and means to salvage the friendship,blame it on my stubbornness which result in this drifting apart.I'm really glad that after all that has happen deep in her heart,she'll remember that I was once upon her pillar of strength,I'm really honored to be one.Upon writing this,I feel a sense of regret,and at times I'm wondered "have I done the right thing" or if I've approach it in a different manner would the situation be different?The answer would always be the same that I've approach the situation in a drastic measure which cause such a scene now.
The only thing I can do is pray and meditate on things that I'm confused on.I've read my seniors blog,and he's the person I've like for 3++ years,seems such a lifetime in liking him but I've never regret in my life for admiring him.Many people tell me "why don't I just confess my liking to him"...There's only one phrase to say "easier said than done".Many people have told me...Why not tell him and maybe he actually have a little liking for you.Somehow it seems fascinating and interesting as it may seem,but the amount of courage and determination to confess a "love" that's so unbelievably real.It really takes so much courage to be able to accept rejection or requited love.Funny or easy it may seems,but the amount of struggles is so much which you can never imagine.I'm still so confused on whether the liking for him is so strong but at this moment in time I really feel the strong affection I've for him.Many people will find it disgusting or mushy,but whatever I say will reflect on many individuals out there.But seriously,I'll be happy if he's happy,noble it may seem,however the sincerity and the honesty of him being happy is the utmost importance.I really have this thinking of "liking someone is not possessing him/her,is when he/she's happy then you feel the sense of joy in seeing him/her happy".
Many people will tell me that's a naive thinking,cause you will still feel the stinge of jealousy whenever you see him with another girl.Yes,true but what can you do when he don't feel anything for you.Then what's the point in pursuing a unrequited love?It contradicts my words,but the point I want to make is confess your likings for him/her,and if the reply is "no" then move on and stop staying on the same spot all the time hoping that he/she'll notice you.

Thoughts of the day :-

Tough times never last but tough people do